sinurha nurul saied

their first lollipop ever!!

2010-04-05T15:13:00.000-07:00

it was a day out without Abi i call it.we would want him around all the time but he is always busy..sadly.although Ummi is the busiest, but we will still find quality time together even for 1/2 hour like this one.actually it was Mak Su who wanted to snap some gorgeous photos of the daffodils..is that how u spell it? and not forgotten the tulips.Ummi ended up snapping this lovely pose of 2 spotty cuty lillies by the Regents Canal Of London.

feels like we're moving house..-abang

2009-06-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

my house turns out to be very messy.with both girls are now in the stage of throwing and open-closing...hehhe, people said that if you have babies, you should not have a nice tidy house.YOU ACTUALLY HAVE TO LET THEM PLAY AND EXPLORE.believe it or not, being naughty( like open the drawers and chuck everything out of it-that's what khadijah does) or making mess is part of children's development. and sadly...u have to let them do it.

my case here, is also part of my busy-ness / laziness.emm...u cannot say i am that lazy because me, i'm quite tidy but being a housewife, i have lots to do.especially when u r a responsible mum where you want to put your children needs first( some housewifes prefer the house to look tidy but they dont play with their kids, nor that they spend time making sure that your children is learning) well....i do.

then, imran comes with the idea of tidying up-developing the idea of changing our rooms.making the living room our bedroom and the bigger room to be family room.

hey look! up there is my beloved HOME- i call it. last year i went, told Ummi that i want red living room but she refused it..hehhehe.so at last it became a REDdish living room like this.emm.ok for a nearly 70 years old wooden house like MY HOME.

(status: k- sleeping in sujuud position m-in the cradle i-zzzZZZzzzZZZ n-blogging+tidying up cant sleep mornings since fajar time is now 2.40 am, woken up at 4am and still awake and will be awake up to 11pm everyday...tough housewife i am!!)

DON'T BE SAD...NURUL..

2009-05-08T14:56:00.000-07:00

salam.dont know why but i ve been thinking of this matter for sometime:how are u, anyway?u know....ehmm..if i ever mentioned about my penpal- rachel when we were in smai.i sticked to her for about 4-5 years and then we stopped.last time i got her address since she's from england.tried to contact her.so i sent her a letter.it turned out that....her dad phoned me one day( about 2 weeks ago, he goes...hi can i speak to nurul said.i am rachel's father.i read your letter but i afraid that i cannot pass the letter to her.(his voice starts to shiver, as he says...)unfortunately, rachel died 9 years ago..(some date in february 2000).she had leukemia.i was speachless and suddenly my mind was blank.well, i hope you will have a good life( does he mean that is because rachel can't!!...oh so so so sad i start to feel)the only thing i remember came out of my mmouth was, owh, she was a wonderful person.then...a very dark cloud start to crawl in me slowly.although i am too busy with my daily stuff, i still feel the sadness now and then.why?i wanted to meet her so much.sometimes or evrytime i come across a white english lady, my age, i thought that..rachel must've grown to be like this lady.could she be married now?has she still got that innocent look of a fresh country girl living in a proper christian family.huh..it is too sad.it's very weird that i still cant get it over as the sadness is increasing day by day.is it that i felt guilty of raising rachel's memory in her family? after 9 long years...i was asking myself why this should happen? why do i behave like this? maybe because i thought all these 9 years that she is still alive, i had been wondering that she might be married now, or lived abroad.i dont know.it's just a blank kind of feeling plus a lot of frustration plus dont know what next....(sighed...long one)still not done, adnin...i thought it will be done after i told you this.after lots of deep concentrated thinking.i think rachel's death has something to do with MY CHILDHOOD.receiving and reading and replying her letters are a very interesting part of it.my imagination of sitting next to her and laugh about our stories...vanished suddenly.and so...leaving my childhood memories..a big hole in the middle.i wish...if only i could....-rachel's long lost pen pal( that's waT i wrote at the back of MY LAST LETTER TO DEAREST RACHEL)NOR'RUL

down....very down.

2009-03-28T05:58:00.001-07:00

nak masak ni.....hehhhe.dah 4 hari tak masak.i had very baaaad days last week.driving was the worst thing happened.Allah help me...ameen.

EATING..SPLASHING....BLOWING..AT THE SAME TIME

2009-03-07T12:27:00.000-08:00

at 2 years 3 months

2009-03-07T12:19:00.000-08:00

discharged from dr hird clinic yesterday and feeling sad coz we cant see him as much.khadijah is 8.1kg.78 cm.can sit and with support.can sitdown by herself . can also write a scriblly letter but holding a pen NICELY!!

double trouble

2009-03-07T12:08:00.000-08:00

maryam fell down on the floor from satnding, 3 times today.all she knows are just stand and climb.do i have to teach her to sit?
khadijah, has been eating well today, a slice of toast with butter and sugar(coz doctor said that fatty food are good for her!!) and 11am lunch- chicken and sweetcorn, and then 1 hour later banana and icecream(crazyness) and then a bottle of milk, lastly just now before she went out with abi-she had 3 spoons of dinner.so far 8.1kg only!!

life is laughing at me...

2009-03-07T04:20:00.000-08:00

i feel a little bit down when thinking of my age.i'm 28 and young..well..i am.but it seems like my life has stopped since i got married.well, it is kind of another kind of progress.alhamdulillah i'm content with these 2 little girls here...but i still want to be my old me!
inside ..it is still burning.the feeling of being a student never fade ever.i still want to further studies, i am confident that studies make you feel young.
is life really laughs at me?if anyone ask why do i feel so, because now, i cant do anything i want.no driving license means no work, no work means no pemanent visa, and no visa means no studies, and no studies means...no life!!
what is actually preventing me from getting the driving license? nothing but so many small reasons.
i am not pleased with myself at the moment.KHADIJAH CAN U PLEASE GAIN MORE WEIGHT? IT'LL BE MY SUNSHINE.AND U MARYAM, WHEN R U GONNA WALK? ABI SURE WANTS U TO WALK TODAY COZ TODAY U TURN 8 MONTHS(since maryam is now standing!!)

my little maryam crawls...at last.

2009-02-17T17:30:00.000-08:00

abi says that maryam has grown up!! she crawled a few steps forward. before she was just moving her body forward n backwd.but now she starts to do it properly.WELL, KHADIJAH, U NEED TO WATCH OUT FOR YOUR TOYS NOW....

teaching khadijah to fall....

2009-02-11T14:55:00.000-08:00

unbelievable when sometimes you need to teach something weird to babies.that's what i did to khadijah.cerebral palsy or hemiphlegia.that's what they call it.some weaknesses in part of bodies due to brain damage.the damage will effect certain function of the body, be it physically or mentally.khadijah, ALHAMDULILLAH not too severe as other child i saw in the clinic last week.
i was suppose to train khadijah how to reach for toys popping out through left arm, trying to make her bear the weight by her left leg, BUT she seems to learn how to sit down from standing instead.USUALLY, she will call for help if she wants to sit down as her legs are too weak to hold or control the body weight.
she tends to straighten or cramp her right leg rather than let it go and drop her self down.so, now she can have a little bit of confident in doing so as I TaUGHT HER HOW TO FALL.......
she knows NOW that falling is not always hurting and falling doesn't mean bad all the times.
she should also know that to fall from standing position is not too high actually,and she can still hold on to something if she is not sure....well done again my girl.

my first snow buddy(snow man)

2009-02-03T17:08:00.000-08:00

my ugly snow man bucause i can't be bothered to wet my glove an then loose my hand(freeze my hand)...as ugly as it is!

THE SNOW FIGHT..

2009-02-03T16:53:00.000-08:00

IT WAS SPLENDID TIME I SPENT IN THE SNOW..EVERYBODY WAS HAPPY N YOU DON'T REALLY NEED TO THINK -AM I BEING CHILDISH?- COZ THAT'S WHAT THE WHOLE LONDONERS WERE DOING ON MONDAY.ONE GOOD TRICK ABOUT THE SNOW FIGHT IS, INSTEAD OF TURNING YOUR BACK WHEN U GET HIT,JUST CATCH THE BALLS AND THROW THEM BACK TO OTHERS....I GOT HIT ON MY HEAD TWICE, ON MY EYES-BY LITTLE HAMZAH!!CHEEKY MONKEY!!

the day that i said "subhanallah..it's so beautiful" most....

2009-02-03T16:28:00.001-08:00

yes..at last..london was covered by 3-5 inches of snow and it keeps falling and falling the whole day last monday.'twas the loveliest day of my life.every where i can see white snow carpeting the surfaces of the city.train, tube, buses and almost all transports were cancelled and shops and work place also were shut.hehehe..it was some kind of eid going on here.everyone texts everybody to say, hey wake up!!!it's snow outside. and i had to go to mum's house to stay there as monday i actually have my driving lesson of which later on cancelled due to raod being too slippery and there's a lot of snow as well.then , imran has to sent me down .the driver was waiting downstairs.khadijah n maryam will also join me because tuesday morning their immunisations are due.then, the driver carefully start driving ass the road started to be covered by thick snow which is fluffy in the beginning.when i reach mum's house, Babely, my sister in law, simply came out to help me with those two-wearing her pyjama...hehheheh-without her coat or nnothing!!!just plain home wear.maybe she is cold blooded that's why these freezing weather doesn't bother her a bit.that night, i couldn't sleep thinking how will i start my SNOW BALL FIGHT TOMORROW.....

khadi....ow..khadijah...

2009-01-31T10:59:00.001-08:00

something about khadijah....developing new hobby at home, messing around with all the drawers and doors. likes to visit the kitchen sometimes, n including the bathroom.her new trend of tidying up is to tuck all the stackable cups under her highchair-well done baby...ops. she's not a baby anymore, she's 2 n alhamdulillah she has started bottom shuffling around the house.ummi n abi had hard times yesterday to choose khadijah's toys from EARLY LEARNING CENTER's website- finally: scribblers, shape puzzle,go go crab, big ball, and a wooden tea set toys.well the tea set is my idea afterall....coz ,imagine how cute will they be on the toys shelves in our sitting room!

maryam and the lifted bottom style...

2009-01-31T10:47:00.000-08:00

maryam will start crawling soon.it's enjoyable to see her trying to lift her bum up high in the sky..heh..she will also turn around, and sometimes fall on her face on the floor.well, not floor actually, be it matress or carpet.she loves her ring( play mat) and loves to grab khadijah's toys as well..

safiyyah balqis ...balqis sofeah...

2009-01-31T10:11:00.000-08:00

itu nama anak sedara yg baru...Ahmad fikri's sister.i don't have any clue how she looks like.must be a cute baby.the name..well, i altered it as the meaning is better to be balqis sofeyyah because in the beginning they wanted it to be safiyyah balqis.the pure balqis is better than balqis, the pure.isn't it???at least my ba in arabic and literature does a bit in her name.unforgetful....

CAOS

2009-01-22T13:38:00.000-08:00

whitechapel,london.it is only 9.32pm but this is the longesttest day of 2009.i think i ...kind of get my birthday present from him.he made me a cuppa.well,it was a always me these times.khadijah made my world turn upside down.maybe her stomach is upset.dr.croft had just increased her lactulose 2 days ago.well...now it's maryam's turn.SHE IS LEAKIN'!!

my birthday...

2009-01-22T08:50:00.000-08:00

don't really feel like a special day to me.just being normal and happy with everyday tasks.emm...thinking of what might happen to my life.THE LIFE OF SITI NURUL HAFIZAH SHEIKH SAID.doesn't it sound like a novel???
my life aint a novel.it's real but believe it or not some things that i used to imagine gonna happen, really happened and it shocked me.since then , i don't really try to imagine this and then.let ALLAH do what's suppose to happen and leave it alone as it is.NEVER TRY THIS AT HOME!!!!

i am not waITING FOR SNOW THIS WINTER...

2009-01-12T05:46:00.000-08:00

I AM NOT WAITING FOR SNOW THIS WINTER .....ANYMORE.because ummi spent 2 months in london , here in my house but the snoww never fall.hah...just great.the day before she went home, she said(hai..takde rezeki jugak nak tengok salji).ALHAMDULILLAH though everything went ok all the way to Malaysia.Ummi is now home and i just talked to her on the phone.the kids are soo happy with presents n gifts.(such lucky coz i never had an autie living oversea when i was little).that's why maybe i pampered them with lots of presents evrytime.dresses for alisya n safiyyah.shirts and trousers for the boys,each of em got also stationaries which i bought from boxing day sales.my sister, k na got a set of pierre cardin pen.nieces-nana,shasha n ain will get teddy bears from xmas sales..my mum herself get some notes...ehhehhehe.oh yes..leka n farhanna..each of ya willl get notes..ok.well..am just feeling relax here at home with the rain starts falling heavy-ops...abang(my husband) will get wet.ok till then...bye.

same but not alike

2008-12-20T16:28:00.000-08:00

ops i can see ABI at the back.n also auntie anndinn's card on the shelf.khadijah's got 12 teeth n maryam can now rolls back n forward.welldone girls.mummy's girls...that's why....

2008-12-20T16:16:00.000-08:00

khadijah n grandpa hird...this man has been takin' care of khadijah since she was in the the intensive care unit in elizabeth ward, royal london hospital.(owh..owh keh khadiyjah..hemmh..let's seey whot is new about ya..wellh.it dos seemh like she has been improving nicely..wellh excellenth...khadiyjah..)yes..that's what he said to me last wed when we met him.his accent always reminds me of mr.bean slang.very british very fluent as well.i can imagine how much he will praise khadijah in his medic report this month.2 pages huh mike?

ummi di london

2008-12-10T13:49:00.000-08:00

sejak ummi ade kat london ni, rasa mudah sikit nak buat keje rumah.i don't know how to cope with them two-khadijah n maryam without her.maryam still too attached to me n khadijah, as well wants more n more attention.i am planning to go back to work this january...but still not sure about it.where can i leave them two..hahaha..my life is all about them.i should actually sometimes think about me, myself and mine.ok..back to ummi yg tak nak berjalan mana2.she just stay home.a nanny became a nanny.we went out to east london mosque 4 eid prayer then to my mother in law's n then back home again.well.i need to do some winter shopping.it's christmas, it's shopping!!the best place is primark as the taxi man won't charge much.it's just the next road.

word search

2008-11-19T06:25:00.000-08:00

i am doing word search puzzle .still have 2 words to find.pudding and santa claus.imran is helping me.khadijah-still playing wit her spoon -the one she got in the emirates flight.maryam stil gooogooing in the craddle.me?...waiting for pudding n santa claus to b found........yeaay..found it!!!

2008-11-19T05:56:00.001-08:00

2008-11-19T05:46:00.000-08:00

this was last april snow which came from nowhere.i really like it when the snow showers the branches.

first...

2008-09-03T19:29:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum wbt..